The calm at the center of a pearl

November 30, 2007

Random musings

Filed under: Journaling — kyraninse @ 3:15 pm

I find that I have a lot less patience for people who are un-willing to talk about certain things – politics, religion, sex, etc. I agree that everyone has a right to decide what they want to talk about and what they’re comfortable hearing about, but then I aver that I have the right to refuse as much as I am able, to talk to such wet blankets.

*shrug* At this point in my life, I just don’t feel like being circumspect all the time. Life’s too short to spend on people who you don’t click with. It may be horrible of me, but I really don’t care much at this point.


November 2, 2007

Gimping self is ultimately FTL.

Filed under: Journaling — kyraninse @ 7:40 pm

Granted, I only heard about it last Sunday or so, really.

But, what’s so difficult about typing up a 400 word abstract on your Senior Independent Study and submitting it for review for the possibility to enter in the Midwestern Psychological Association’s convention?

Not very much, admittedly.

However, I’ve put it off and put it off — using the excuse: “Well, I don’t want to go to grad school for psychology anyways —so even if I were able to be accepted (only 10% don’t get accepted) — it doesn’t matter much if I do or don’t anyways.”

Right now, I’m taking a hard look at my psyche and not liking it a whole lot.

The fact is, even if I didn’t go to grad school in the end, having someone like this on my resume would be pretty kick-ass. Another fact is, in order for my bachelor’s degree is psychology to mean anything, grad school is pretty much a given.

Of course, 1.5 hours away from the submission deadline, I’m sitting here whining on my blog about what a loser I am.

— I’m not going to be able to get it in on time, because I don’t have time to write it AND have my adviser read it over to sponsor it, which she needs to do. Anyways, I suck.

The real reason why I didn’t do it is:

  1. I’m a lazy bum
  2. I’m a scaredy-cat lazy bum and the idea of speaking at a convention makes me want to hide in a corner –which I did, essentially.
  3. Safety zone — need I say more? Also, I’m lazy.

*sigh* I’m going to go practice some more self-hate now.

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