The calm at the center of a pearl

May 29, 2008

The sky as blue as love

Filed under: Uncategorized — Tags: — kyraninse @ 1:59 pm

I’m feeling out of sorts.

I’ve been fiddling with setting up a blog and hosting it on my own domain and whatnot — and it won’t work. It runs and hiccups and stops and starts and drives me nuts. Chris mentioned once that I might enjoy web design — for all I know he could be right and I’d like fiddling with sites to make them tick and shine — but oh my god I hate the tech aspect.

I try looking at guides and forum posts to piece together what went wrong and it’s all over my head. It’s not just something I can jump into, nor is it that intuitive.


It’s a gorgeous day out and all I can think about is whether I want to go to Courtanna’s wedding. I want to, but I’m not sure I can afford it. Between opportunity costs and Greyhound and hotel — ergh.

“The sun runs like silk down the waterfall of your hair and the wind glows with your spilled blood.”

I also want this summer to be over. College was limbo and now I’m still in limbo. I want a home, a stable job and permanence. God knows I haven’t had it, ever. I so envy Courtanna’s domestic bliss.



  1. I completely crashed the week I finished college. I’d been saving up all these things to do once it was over – books to read, writing projects, games to play – and suddenly they all seemed utterly unappealing because I had nowhere to go with it all. I managed to reawaken by doing some (awful) sketching for a while. The bad part is, I’m still in that limbo in most respects.

    Comment by Thene — May 29, 2008 @ 4:26 pm

  2. I can relate, a lot, actually.
    I had a bit of a mental breakdown the night I got back because I realized I had truly hit limbo. The only thing that really got me back on my feet was a distinct goal. Ironically, the goal I have is so that I can see people again. Riot. You guys, Zora and Zach, see people. I do not wish to lose all my friends again, like I did going from elementary school to high school, from high school to college. And now. Now I have the ability to make sure it doesn’t happen, so now my goals are simple. Find a place to live, find a job, find the means to make it all happen.

    Seems that everyone goes through something like this. We all have to figure out what that path is, now that we no longer have one laid out for us.

    Comment by Kell — May 29, 2008 @ 7:26 pm

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